Cal(a)m(ity).

To stand before a storm, strong and unyielding.
Scamper, like a hound with tail between its legs.


It's always before something urgent that people show you who they really are, their true colors in a certain sense. Everyone can be all fun and games when times aren't trying and nobody have to make any tough calls, then everyone's your friend. That's an easy enough finger to point at anyone other than yourself. But then through another's perspective, how do you - any of us stand before any decision with measurable repercussions? What of your own colors? Where do you stand in all of this?

Everyone - me included, liked to think that we're the better person than every single person we meet. That's because we enjoy the sense of superiority imposed upon by ourselves - an illusion of thought, the feel good gene in our dna. In truth, there's no method of judging who's the better one. It's all just a matter of how you see things. Yet, that don't change the undeniable fact that anyone of us would jump at the chance of proving ourselves in anyway deem probable. Petty, yes but we'd even have a name for such an occurrence, "Ego" (a particularly nasty mutation is the male type of ego) Apparently, humanity didn't get too far ahead of the curve as we think we did. And neither am I immune to this affliction nor am I doing anything to take care of it, though I think it's nigh time that I should take a look into, sometime, probably, maybe.

To carry on the trend of ever contradicting myself, this "Ego" is the thing that built cities and razed civilizations whole, without which then there won't exist a font of tension between ruling men, aspiring scientists and adventurers wannabes. And of course without said tension, there's won't be any sort of competitiveness floating around. In my opinion, progress only comes when there are people fighting for it and advancement only happens when there are people behind you, pushing you forward. Well, in a way. Man, I suck at analogies.

On a side note, I've again failed to gather any sort of an audience around haven't I? A few weeks hiatus in between posts tend to do that I suppose..but still it's kinda hard to keep blogging in regular intervals and making it a habit. Perhaps I should try again?


To look into the calamity that which is a storm,
Stand, in the eye and be calm.

What's not?

This isn't my first blog. I have plenty of failed iterations of previous blogs which now lies somewhere between hidden and deleted. Today of all days should be a great day for fresh beginnings, to start anew, reignite my passion for writing - this time to an audience I didn't know existed. I think, to write and to blog is two very different things. I love to write, make no mistake but for all my blog posts, I could not sustain a single reader much less an audience.

Today, I would like to change that. I want to be blogging, not only writing.

The first thing when you create a new blog, what's the thing that takes the longest time? Loading up the browser? No? You probably guessed it. I was stuck on the figuring out a title for this little blog space of mine. It took me hours before I'd even began to write anything of a title that I deemed worthy as a title.

It's just like when you start up a brand new game for the first time, and you're asked to type in your - the game's protagonist's name. Most of the time, when I finally got the name right, I'm already mentally exhausted to do anything else and that concludes my game time for the day.

Even with that said, I haven't the slightest what does this title means at all. Perhaps in time, I'll figure it out with some readers of course.

It's long road ahead, though it be blurred and unfocused, I want very much to see it all through, someday. Don't you just find the prospect of having something exciting to be exciting? This blog might be that exactly :)

I think this is a suitable length for any reputable first posts. So, I hope to see you reading my blog somewhere sometime. Maybe?