This.

Ah, where to begin. Just some much jumbled thoughts that I want out, arranged neatly. It would seem that the more I try to put everything nicely, the messier it gets. Just got not talent at all, looking at the state of my dorm room. But hey, I can push that shit on my finals right, I need to study for my papers so I've got no time to do mundane crap like cleaning up my own mess. Yeah, do that, just blame it all on your last minute cramming and so-called revisions.

I heard before that how your room looks, reflects entirely on you as a being. I guess that makes me a steaming pile of muck, dust and cobwebs? Yeah, that's me.

Ever had a time when you just want it to pass, to end, to go away. However childish that sounds. This might just be that exact time I'm in and I'm mightily stuck in this endless time loop. It's like a poorly made reboot of Back to the Future where Marty just keeps going back again and again because he keeps screwing up. Then in the end, he end up f-

no. but you get the idea, don't you? This.

I wish your choices lead you to happiness.

(Prior)ities.

Another period of being inactive yet again, it does seem to be rather the normal occurrence here though.

Writing here initially, this blog was suppose to be some form of release for myself. An outlet for me to just let it all out, which I've found to my dismay, is really not that simple. I couldn't write as freely as I had, before. or wouldn't. You know, we wouldn't know. 

Reminiscing on my previous blogs, I don't remember how I could posted what I did, I don't remember what drove me to write those words. What was my aim? Really, what the heck was on my mind? Reading back some, I'm pretty sure I'm incapable of writing anything similar again. Atleast for the time being.

but I remembered how good it felt, to not think so much. and just write.

In a slightly more aesthetic description - letting the words flow out, let it rip.

 It's a feeling I'm striving for once again.

To write, for the sake of writing.

and I couldn't pick a better time to reevaluate my life decisions, eh? Really.